This is my life...

So, I just had this major ephiphany! But sadly, I have this same one about every 6 months and I do nothing about it.

I'm sitting at work. At a job that I hate. Doing work I care nothing about. Driving 2 hours each day. Spending way to many hours away from my family...from my life. Wasting my life away just to earn a paycheck. Stuck here because I have to earn a paycheck and unfortunately no one has offered to let me earn a living being crafty and creative.

Then I start thinking "What am i waiting for? What do I need to have change in order to live a life I love? What is it I want? Why do I keep saying...someday...in the future things will be better". Why can't it be now? Why am I not actively trying to pursue a life I love?"

I read a quote the other day that Dr. Wayne Dyer had on his twitter feed and it said "There are people who live 70 years, and there are those that live the same year 70 times." Those words spoke to me. They had more meaning that I really wanted to think about. I knew it was powerful and very true, yet I just let it be a thought and did nothing about it.

I know this is my life and I am in control, yet I sit here waiting for someone to change it for me. It is in my control. I can do this. I have no idea how. I just know I need to. Life was meant to be lived. Life was meant to be enjoyed.

I found this image above when I did a quick search on something to capture what I was feeling...and those words were it. What am I waiting for...

Okay...now that you've had a glimpse inside the ramblings of my brain...you can now go about your day...hopefully doing something you love...and if not...hopefully with a different persepective to help you get to that life!

Comments

[Soldier Girl]

that is the same attitude I carry with me everyday .. aint nobody gonna do it for you .. love the post .. thanks for the reminder ..

xoxo

[Ann]

Love your honesty and know where you are at with your life.

Back in Feb I transfered to my DREAM job. One that I had thought about since doing an internship there while in college. It took me 20 years to get there, but I did. And now, I'm screwing it up-unforeseen circumstances-I have had my last written warning (attendance, safety, not following the mission). I didn't do these things intentionally they just happened. So I am on my last straw. I can only do my best (which I thought I had been doing) for now on. So, although the grass looks greener, it always isn't so.

I love the work that I do, I love my clients, and I like the people that I work with but maybe it's not supposed to be. I am fighting to keep my dream job.

Keep your chin up, think positive, and make your life better.

(((Hugs)))

[Dori]

I hear you Lisa! Just reading your post made me want to cry because I feel so much the same way. I already had my dream job and was laid off (9 years ago)because of budget cuts - only to take a job that pays a few bills, bores me to tears, BUT as my husband keeps reminding me is "so flexible"!

Can you hear me screaming?

I am going to live the same 70 or 80 or 90 years over and over again in one LONG all the same year. That Sucks!

[Daniela]

I have those thoughts at times. Luckily, I am right where I need to be. {{{{Hugs}}}}

[reyanna]

Man, I SO needed this today! I'm so... ack... I don't know. I so hope things get better for you! And I really need to do more things that I LOVE. I truly don't live enough anymore. Thanks so much for the reminder! :-)

[Cheri]

Don't you just hate it when you ask yourself WHY you aren't doing something about your situation and find you don't have a good answer. None of the "excuses" really hold water. That is the point at which it is time to say enough is enough and be BOLD!

[Hannah Means]

Just do it! Take the plunge! You know you want to. You'll be glad you did! I promise.

[Michele H.]

oh lisa...i so hear you! I was there not to long ago and I finally got off my butt and started looking for other jobs. Leaving a place after 9 years, benefits, good pay, 401K was really tough. But it was either that or my sanity! I feel so much better now...mind you I still have those days...but they are not as bad. Hang in there! When the timing is right...you'll know!!!

[Dalon]

way to go! love this post - right now it seems I'm treading water, but you reminded me that *I* have the power to change - either change the way I feel or change what I'm doing - thank you!!! (oh, and by the way - I reread your "creativity project" info right after this post ... THAT'S a great way to remember how to live ... each moment is special!!!! and you are AMAZING!!!)

p.s. any other job opportunities closer to home??? the right opportunity will come your way if you keep your options open ;-) GOOD LUCK!!

[Mindy Miller]

I absolutely know what you're talking about. For the past couple of years, I kept asking myself how I found myself in a place where I was so unhappy. Ultimately, I knew it was up to me to initiate change, but that's so much easier said than done. Then one day this spring I realized that life was passing me by. So, I got up from my desk, went to the HR director's office and I quit my job. I'm not advocating such rash behavior, but I've certainly learned that the biggest risks really can offer the biggest rewards. All the best to you!

[Liz ORam]

Been having similar thought lately...isn't it funny how we hold ourselves back?? Want a good read about why different people succeed at things? "Outliers", by Malcom Gladwell. Sometimes, sucess is based more on opportunity than ability. It's funny though, sometimes we have to create our own opportunity. Maybe this is your brain telling you to do just that. Good Luck!!

[Margot/NZ]

Lisa, I worked through "Journey to Perpetual Happiness" with you last year at BPS. I found the material challenging but I kept with it. I can't say that my life has been transformed (I've not been dedicated enough to practising the processes), but I do think it is worth putting in the effort - results come. Perhaps it is time for you to revisit this programme and see what will come into your life as a result?
Lots of virtual hugs coming your way from New Zealand (I'm sure they aren't lessened by the distance)!

[Jana D]

Make a plan. A detailed plan of how to get what you want. It won't be easy or quick. But you will be happier knowing that you are working toward your ideal job. Putting it on paper makes it easier to attain. Find a job closer to home. That will give you more time to work on getting to what you want. And pray. It's powerful stuff. I'm sending one your way. Life is too precious to not be happy. Sending hugs to you.