I love this image from http://notsalmon.com/blog/ (great blog too by the way!)
It pretty much sums up where I am at with my life. Where I am at with this blog. I want to change things up a little bit. I want to focus on everyday being a new day. Everyday being exactly what it is. Not what it was yesterday or what it might be tomorrow, or a year from now.
I haven't been blogging because I have set expectations for myself in the past that I haven't met. Expectations like, I'll be back this week, which now was a couple weeks ago, to update on how I'm catching up on my PL, but since I haven't prepared a post for that I haven't been back. I set myself up for failure sometimes because I don't have a clarity around what I really want to do. What I really want this place to be about. Just because it's been about one thing in the past it doesn't mean it has to be about that now, or in the future. And just because I want it that way right now doesn't mean it has to be that way in the future.
I've been learning lately that everytime I think I want to do something right now, I get so caught up in the future of it, or even the past, and I become frozen and end up not doing it at all. But, I want to blog. I want to blog about my journey into the new. About my One Little Word (OLW) for 2013 which is AWAKE. About who I am and where I am going for the year. I will stumble. I will sound foolish. I will say one thing one day and change my mind the next. I will put myself out there for my growth.
So I am working on my goals for this blog. First, I am changing the name from 'Day by Day' to 'It's a New Day'. I want the word Day in my title because it's fun since it's my last name. But the title of 'Day by Day' feels to me that it needs to be about the same thing day after day. I know it doesn't, but the name feels constricting to me right now. The name 'It's a New Day' gives me the freedom to write about whatever I want, to move past old mistakes, to be new each day.
Yes, I am rambling. I am just writing because I want to put it out there so I can tell myself it's time for change. It's time to embrace each moment as being new and NOW. It's time to let go of the past and not worry about the future. So here's to 2013. Here's to a year where I find out who I am and what I want and not worry about what other people think I am or what they think I am about. I've been trying to mold myself into the image I think other people have of me and that's restricting and most often way off base. It's time to find out who I am and what I really want.
Here's to a new day!